not good enough

i may not be as shiny as you think i should be, but still i gave my best.
sorry, i'm just not good enough (for you).


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early this evening a friend told me they're going to chill out because one of our friends is feeling down. God, I miss that, hanging out with friends after a long day or anytime we felt like it.
now my options whenever i feel like dashing to a speeding train are (a) Overeat, (b) Eat my shorts, (c) Curse the cruel world, or (d) Sit on it.
overeating will make me fat, and why on earth should i eat my shorts!? i wouldn't dare curse the cruel world because the people i love are still living on it. SO, i have to sit on it then...