New Year, new slate

thank God it's already a new year. i'm over and done with 2005 with all it's disappointments, hurts, and whatevers. unloaded the leftover emotional baggages that may drag my smooth sailing on the new year. let bygones be bygones. also have to let go of the 'fans', they're just a bunch of lying louts anyway, except maybe for one, but a clean slate is a clean slate. no expectations, no pressures, no pre-conceived notions, no nothing. just dreams, some guts, an open mind, and a peaceful heart. that would do for now.

last year was my most frustrating and difficult, and ironically my most financially bountiful. maybe i'm not my best if i have money. sad to say a good amount were, if not spent for stuffs that were eventually stolen, spent mindlessly because my mind was always clouded. but i have forgiven myself for that. again, it's a new year, new clean slate. and new apartment, too.

however, i admit there had been lots of blessings, too, especially for my family, so i guess it's ok. whatever is in store for me this year, it has to be better than last year.. or or or.. i should handle it better than last year, you know, being a year older. hehehe...